Kept in suspension

For the past month, we've been exercising the actions that we have always carried out. We've been elaborating upon the tendencies that we've always had. Even though these actions and tendencies are our own, we are sometimes unaware. We have to isolate them in order to realize the capacity of our own activity. We make a mark so that we know where that mark can go, what that mark can do, and how that mark can function. We alter in order integrate what is already there with what we are able to bring forth. This is what we are doing now, and really, this is what we've already been doing so far. Whether or not we were aware of it, in the classes we took back in the States, we employed these actions and tendencies the whole time. We mark, we alter, we operate, we integrate, we interrupt, and we move. We do all of this, all the time. Simply because we have isolated these actions here does not mean we have separated ourselves from them. As we move from one action to another, we try to make the connections--to bring the parts back to the whole, to bring what has been brought forth back to its source. I admit it: sometimes it feels as if we're being kept in suspension, poised at the outer edge of resolution. We're not quite ready to step forward because we haven't made a commitment. But then again, do we have to make a commitment? All I know is, the weight on our shoulders has grown heavy, and we do not have the means to carry it. Okay, I'm starting to speak in figures of speech. This is my cue to stop.